Dream

Dream can be so real when you're stuck in it. Dream works with your mind going into another state while you're asleep physically. Maybe this is why i'm never energize for any day at work or even days off. Some say dream only occur when you're in a deep sleep. But doesn't deep sleep means shutting down physically and mentally?

I hope i can choose not to dream because dream for me triggers my memory. Memories which i wish i could just delete.

Every time i feel better, it have to come back and haunt me. Why? It's been a very long time. How come till now there's nothing there to replace those memories thats untouched and awaiting deletion? I wish i could go easy and forget. I wish i could my memories are not buried deep inside me.

I WISH~

Undecisive

Sometimes some part of life can't be decided. At some stage deciding will only end up giving you regrets.For someone like me, i felt that every single things that i've decided was made a wrong decision. I just wish human or maybe things that is linked to my decision, would actually let me retry on making the decision again. Everyone deserve a 2nd try.

The anger and hatred that comes after making a wrong decision is unexplainable. Somehow hoping someone or something out there would actually guide me on decisions that will always give me the right decision. But i know for me having the right decision it may be bad for others. Human are selfish, i deserve to be selfish. Don't every deserve to be selfish?

I wish everyone would learn to give and take at an equal, not taking more than giving.

Looks?

Looking like a typical girl with a typical attitude.. what makes her special is "personality"

Memories

For some reason this morning seems funny. Thinking of falling for someone made me laugh. The naive and innocent thinking back then was just a hilarious joke. Am I a person who'd fall or anyone? Is my senses right? Or have I let go of my past? I was told one hurt you doesn't mean every others would.

Anyway morning is lovely and memories keep pouring in. Something to have a smile for. At the end of the day I believe I am and should be the winner. ;)

Memories

For some reason it still lingers in me. Where are the memories for the past 3 years? It seems like I have been living day by day. Obstacle after obstacle. If one can choose which part of life they can wipe off in their memories, there won't be so many sad people out there.

For many time, there's someone there to help you go through every day in life but it means nothing if they just decide to leave. Hey might think it's helping but in fact it's a torture.

The word satisfaction shouldn't be used or even put into a dictionary. No one will be satisfied with anything.

Job!

These days, it's obviously getting tougher when prices on everything around have gone up but not wages. It's obvious the greed in the rich and the greed in the poor can be seen. But at the end of it, it's the rich that would win. Because "THEY" control the money.

Finding a job is almost close to impossible at this stage for those that's uneducated. What is worst than that is even people with a degree or a diploma are falling into that category too. What is happening to the world, the economy, the country?

Finding money is for survival. Finding a job is for survival. Is there an end of these or is there a way out for those that try to survive? Or it will continue as it is with people that don't need the money to spend on luxuries?

Where's the good karma?the good deed?the good intention? the hardwork?

Sleep

Somehow sleep's the best option to free myself from stress and problems. It may be a temporary solution but what helps, helps. Different people free themselves differently. Unfortunately those that have got no choice will have to stick to it. Why can't human be less complicated? Why can't we just stay as how we are? Why's there so much greed in this world that causes people to stress or create problems?

I guess everyone, everywhere @ anytime are filled with questions!

The start

Life is such a complicated thing. No matter how damage a person is, he/she still need to drive on to strive for something better in life. To establish something means to achieve recognition. Is it really important for someone to be recognize? Does it make a person someone when he/she gets recognize?

It was once stated human are decaying living thing that is polluting the world. Some prediction by some prophecy for natural disaster caused by human.

Once again human live on striving for better, striving for recognition by others.