Dream

Dream can be so real when you're stuck in it. Dream works with your mind going into another state while you're asleep physically. Maybe this is why i'm never energize for any day at work or even days off. Some say dream only occur when you're in a deep sleep. But doesn't deep sleep means shutting down physically and mentally?

I hope i can choose not to dream because dream for me triggers my memory. Memories which i wish i could just delete.

Every time i feel better, it have to come back and haunt me. Why? It's been a very long time. How come till now there's nothing there to replace those memories thats untouched and awaiting deletion? I wish i could go easy and forget. I wish i could my memories are not buried deep inside me.

I WISH~

Undecisive

Sometimes some part of life can't be decided. At some stage deciding will only end up giving you regrets.For someone like me, i felt that every single things that i've decided was made a wrong decision. I just wish human or maybe things that is linked to my decision, would actually let me retry on making the decision again. Everyone deserve a 2nd try.

The anger and hatred that comes after making a wrong decision is unexplainable. Somehow hoping someone or something out there would actually guide me on decisions that will always give me the right decision. But i know for me having the right decision it may be bad for others. Human are selfish, i deserve to be selfish. Don't every deserve to be selfish?

I wish everyone would learn to give and take at an equal, not taking more than giving.